VISIONS I HAD BURIED UNDERGROUND / RETURNING TO ABUSE US

[pecsonpecs]

open krieg rp post.

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[gunslingerqueen]

[She's an animal when undomesticated, make an honest-ish girl out of her and she'll cuddle even more than usual! But road life isn't going to allow for a dating life, so this is how it has to be, right? Right.]

I'm sure that there's candy there, but I don't think that's all it is! There's the history and toys and memorabilia and stuff! I just want a plush of the sassy green one anyway, and a blanket.

[They could really be there for twenty minutes at the most, don't be a spoil sport, Krieg.]

[pecsonpecs]

[And we wonder if Krieg has the ability to tame the beast.]

Heh. You would like the green one.

[Look, he doesn't eat the candy, but that doesn't mean he doesn't watch the commercials.]

[gunslingerqueen]

She's sassy! Who doesn't love that in a woman?

[Especially one made of chocolate.

That's really okay since the only reason she ever came to love the candy was thanks to the commercials! Advertising at it's best, yo.]

I like the yellow guy, too, I always want to give him a hug.

[She smiles at her own writing but it's really meant for Krieg, she just forget to turn her head the right way.]

[pecsonpecs]

Heh. My favorite one is the brown one.

[Yep. The wild rockstar drummer Krieg likes the calmer, bespectacled anthropomorphic candy. Goooo figure.]

[gunslingerqueen]

Huh.

[That's incredibly surprising, actually! But it also makes her consider something so important, so very thrilling that she looks over at him! And then her eyes narrow, she seems to squint, even leans in closer ...

H m m m.]

[pecsonpecs]

[He's content to let the conversation end there, but eventually he realizes that Nariko is staring at him. He does a double-take, trying to keep his eyes on the road.]

Wh-what?

[gunslingerqueen]

[H M M !!!!!!]

You'd look extra hot in glasses.

['Extra' because Krieg is already perfectly attractive on his own.]

[pecsonpecs]

Wh--I don't need glasses!

[Truthfully, he's actually a little nearsighted...nothing to necessarily need glasses, but still, it's not 20/20.]

[gunslingerqueen]

Who is talking about needing them? They'd just look good!

[Don't misunderstand her interests, partner.]

[pecsonpecs]

I'm not a glasses kind of guy, Nariko...

[He's more, you know. Leather and gasmasks and chains and ballgags.]

[gunslingerqueen]

I'm going to imagine it no matter what you say.

[And she's not going to apologize for that! ... Ballgags, though?]

You'd kinda look like that hot teacher with tattoos that everyone wants to fuck.

[pecsonpecs]

[Yep.

Ballgags.]

That's a...pretty specific fantasy. Is that a "thing"?

[Krieg wouldn't know, because he dropped out in middle school.]

[gunslingerqueen]

[Amazing.]

I mean, it has to be. [She looks up and squints at the road ahead of them.] ... If it's not I might have made a terrible mistake when I was thirteen.

[Well, to be honest.] Not that terrible, I guess, but still. It's good to knock things off your bucket list, I suppose.

[She goes back to writing. If Krieg would like to nope right out of this line of conversation that's perfectly fine, she won't drag it out.]

[pecsonpecs]

[He has to keep his eyes on the road, but he keeps looking at her like she's going to elaborate. When it's clear that she's just going to leave it at that...]

Come on, you can't bait me with a story like that and just leave me hanging.

[gunslingerqueen]

[She looks up and raises a brow at him.]

I mean, it's sort of like a bad porno. I was hot for the guy and I didn't give up until we fucked on his desk. I think that was, like, his first year teaching, too.

[She waves a hand before going back to writing.] He was one of those silent, kinda scary looking guys. Everyone was terrified of the guy, but back then I enjoyed getting a rise out of people for the sake of it, dude might as well have had a target on his back that said 'all of my desperate thirteen-year-old fantasies'.

[pecsonpecs]

[...oh, maybe that was exactly what he was suspecting.]

What. You didn't even wait until he was tenured? He could've lost his job for that.

[Krieg? Chastising someone for doing something reckless? Hell must be freezing over.]

[gunslingerqueen]

[She gives him a deadpan sort of look, but since that might not be enough to get her thoughts across:] I didn't care about anything but blowing that man until he couldn't remember how to breathe, Krieg. When I get like that I don't really give a shit about what might come after.

[It's a habit she hasn't quite broken, yet, but someone once told her the first step to forming new habits was recognizing you have a very bad one! So she's been recognizing this one for about, oh, three years!]

Besides, he didn't lose his job. Instead he called my mom and recommended 'serious' counseling, even though I ditched his class for the rest of the year he gave me a 'B' and I pretended he didn't exist after that.

[She rolls her eyes so violently that it's amazing they don't tumble out of her head.]

[pecsonpecs]

Shit...

[Forget being an animal, she's a real force of nature. No wonder the two of them had chemistry the very moment they met...

Still, the whole conversation has him feeling...odd. For a moment he's content to just let the conversation wane into silence, but he really can't let it go. His hand wrings the steering wheel a little, and figures...well, fuck it.]

You have a lot of sex, right?

[gunslingerqueen]

[... The timing of that question is just amazing. And also kind of terrible. But since it doesn't sound like he's accusing her of anything, and there's no disgust involved, she might as well be honest.]

Yep.

[She's just going to leave it at that, since he's probably getting at something here, and he doesn't need the details anyway.]

[pecsonpecs]

[There's an abominable awkward silence that follows her answer as Krieg tries to figure out what to say next. How to admit it without...actually admitting it.]

Is it...

[Hoh boy. He clears his throat.]

Is it hard?

[gunslingerqueen]

[The words about tumble out of her mouth, is what hard except it ... Clicks sort of quickly, not that she believes it immediately. He's not, there's no way! But then, no one ever asks that sort of question unless they haven't.]

It's sort of like riding a bike. [If he really is then she's not going to make him feel bad about it! If anything she feels a strange need to be as informative and helpful as possible.

Maybe it's because this might be one thing she's more worldly about.]

For a lot of people it's awkward the first few times, you have to figure it out slowly, but then you just sort of get the hang of it - it can be very instinctual.

[Is she handling this right? God, she hopes so.]

[pecsonpecs]

[It's nice to finally have someone he trusts to talk about this kind of stuff. Was he going to get it from his parents? Hell no. Was he going to learn it in school? Dropped out too early. Was he going to get it on the street?

No. He's crazy, not stupid.]

I guess I never really understood it. I've never looked at a person and went, "of anything else in the world, I want to have sex with this person." The idea seems cool and all, but I think...I think I've never felt like I trusted someone well enough to like...ask for it...or something.

[Yeah, he really does not get it.]

[gunslingerqueen]

[It's almost a little disheartening because, well, she figured that might be the case for him. She closes her notebook and leans back into the seat, glances over at him.]

There's usually a few more steps involved. First you meet someone that makes you happy in a way that's different from normal happiness, just being around them can make you smile or feel kind of at ease with things, and touching them is exciting - even if it's just holding hands or cuddling. Sex is usually the result of an intense emotional connection that can't stay within the boundaries of friendship. Trust and respect and arousal are things that come with time, and supposedly the best sex is had with someone you have all those things with.

[But she doesn't exactly know what that's like, so if he finds out he'll be the one to school her on it.]

[pecsonpecs]

[Uhhh.]

That...doesn't really sound like the procedure that you used with the tattooed teacher.

[Look, he's not really calling her a hypocrite...okay, well, maybe he is, but it's mostly because what she's telling him isn't necessarily adding up.]

[gunslingerqueen]

[She flushes a bit and keeps her eyes in check. It's a valid statement!! Doesn't mean she has to like it.]

There's two things about that though! First of all, teenagers are usually chock full of hormones and the overwhelming desire to masturbate. But then a lot of teenagers don't go through massive trauma [Like Krieg must have.

Other teenagers who have gone through considerable trauma apparently find a form of escape in being sexually objectified. Life's a tricky beast that way.] so they've got time to want to yank it a lot, and then do it with other people. [She says this part very gently, but without a hint of patronization. It's not his fault he went through it, but even Nariko probably would have stopped caring about orgasms if she didn't have somewhere to live and was on her own.]

The other part of that is, y'know, I've never fallen in love, but I enjoy sex. I like ... [Wow this is weirdly difficult to say now that it's coming up.] ... The physical part of it is great, but when someone's touching me it feels like I'm wanted and desired, like I can give someone something that makes them feel amazing. For a little while I have someone who can only think about me, can only rely on me, that I get to have to myself.

[WOW HER FACE IS HOT.] ... So for me it's just chasing a stupid feeling.