doku | VISIONS I HAD BURIED UNDERGROUND / RETURNING TO ABUSE US

[It's not exactly the most comforting sentiment, but he'll take it.]

'Grenade.'

[Not that he's going to be able to say it when he's gagged, but still. Makes him feel a little better, and hopefully it does her, too.]

Oh, that's a good one. Mine used to be 'bacon'.

[Back when she had regular sex.]

What about when you can't talk, though?

[The first thing she can really think of is a certain pattern of blinking, but maybe that's lame.]

Cute.

[He's not sure 'bacon' would work for him, on the grounds that it's not really alarming enough. Yelling 'grenade' is definitely alarming.]

If you're not planning to bind my whole hand...

[He takes a hand off the steering wheel to hold up a pinky finger. It'd be easy enough to pull off if his wrists are bound. It means she'd have to watch his hands carefully, but it's not like it's a gesture likely to happen all on its own.]

We could buy a bell if you're not confident in it.

That'd be perfect!

[She does plan on being able to see his hands, the first few times around!]

Probably need the bell for other positions, though. Variety is the spice of life, and all.

[And while she isn't the most ultra confident form of herself in this that doesn't mean she isn't looking forward to the challenge of it, and to the freedom that will result from overcoming it. Letting her imagination run wild is a big part of that.]

We'll go ahead and buy the bell anyway.

[Yeah he might be behind the idea of doing it multiple times with her. So maybe he really is warming up to the idea like he should.

It's nice to talk about it beforehand. For some reason, he thought it was meant to be a spur of the moment thing.]

...I'm assuming Vegas has a sex toy store.

[There's no way it can't!]

[That gets another true, genuine laugh out of her.]

I mean, it's only the home of the adult entertainment awards! I think we'll be alright!

[She just - man, she really needed a good laugh and it kind of tumbles into that, sloughing off any stress or residual feelings that just aren't needed.]

I really think we'll be fine. [If she gives the impression of saying that for the both of them it's only because she is. He'll be okay, and she won't ruin their friendship. She opens her notebook and finds her pen again.

She's probably still going to have a little bit of fun when he goes to sleep tonight, which is definitely happening because he doesn't need to be messing up his own schedule, and she's a night person anyway.]

W-wait, what? That's a thing?!

[HE HONESTLY HAD NO IDEA. He's usually watching homegrown videos on the internet, not DVDs, so he's blissfully ignorant of everything related to the adult entertainment industry.]

What--what kind of categories do they have?

[She looks at him with complete and utter skepticism! How - How do you not know that's a thing?! Holy shit.]

There's, like, over fifty or something. Best male and female performer, best all girl scene, best director, best foreign film, best sex comedy!

[So, so many different awards. She doesn't rent DVDs either but she does follow, uh, certain companies online that end up making appearances at the show itself which is sort of how she ends up hearing about it when the time comes.]

Wow. I had no idea.

[...clearly.]

I always thought pornography was like the wild west of cinematography. No rules, total anarchy, competition for the sluttiest actors...I had no idea that they were organized enough to have an awards ceremony.

Those judges must watch an ungodly amount of porn.

[A beat.]

Did you ever consider it? Becoming a porn star.

[She seems like she has the "lots of sex" requirement handled.]

[She grins and seems happy to leave it at that until he asks that question. Somehow it's surprising that he's the first person in her life to ask the question - although now that she thinks about it there were probably quite a few who wanted to ask.]

No, I mean, there's other stuff I've considered that's along those lines, and it's not like I haven't had sex in public or in front of specific people ...

[This isn't explaining her lack of porn oriented decisions at all, is it?] I don't think I'd like never being known for anything else. And it's not very personal. There are other sex oriented things that are much easier, so I'd sooner go with those options.

Huh.

[Never thought of it that way.]

I guess it'd be hard to get employed by anyone who got off on watching you get it.

Well, it might not be 'hard'. [It'd probably be difficult to work for someone who knew what she'd done.]

But, I mean, I'd rather bang Roman and call him 'Daddy' for a summer and have enough money for two years than know that some video I make could be bought by virtually any company that throws out enough money. [The fact that Krieg seems so earnestly curious above all else makes it far too easy to talk about this stuff. She'd pretty much never bring up that man unless she was positive that her life depended on it.]

One thing that's concerning about industrial porn is that you probably don't have a lot of control over your work. It can go anywhere, your bound by a contract. If you're an escort or a sugar baby then the people you're stuck with are more capricious and demanding, but they're generally very rule-abiding.

Huh. I had no idea it was that...complicated.

[It's not really the right word, but it's the first one that comes to mind to describe such a situation where something so personal is so...publicly used.]

I liked just going through user submitted stuff. 'Cause--depending on the website--they still own it, and they can take it down when they want. And they get creative, too, like wearing masks or using camera angles to hide their face...

[Krieg just likes artists who make their own stuff, you know? Smut...artists.

...which gives him an idea.]

You, uh...wanna watch some together? [Her faves and/or his.]

[Life is complicated, Krieg, and so is this entire conversation. They've gone from awkwardly slipping into talking about sex to possibly watching porn together. So much for trying to keep her relationship with him uncomplicated and professional.]

Sure.

[She does a good job of sounding nonplussed! But her insides have the squirmy quality that tends to come with genuine excitement for the unknown.]

To think there are dedicated voyeurs, though! It's pretty cool.

[Man, why isn't she a smut artist?!]

[It...kind of feels natural to him. Nariko is the first woman he's liked in a way that wasn't just protective or familial. Now that he's gotten over the awkwardness that is admitting that he has yet to punch his v-card, the rest is coming pretty easily.]

Yeah, they're awesome. Some of them are even--you know, dedicated partners, recording real moments. Not trying to play the camera or anything. Just doing what they do.

[Maybe it's another venture Keigo can get into...]

Really? [There's a little sense of wonder in her voice as she says that, and for all that's going on in the back of her head that's such an incredibly sweet thought. Actual couples who just love each other a lot, and are incredibly kinky and confident enough to pretty much express that to anyone who goes looking.]

... Must be nice.

[To be that close to someone, to trust them like that ... She swallows an aching sort of bitterness and just smiles.]

There's a reason why I prefer it.

[Sounds like there's something in it for the both of them, then.]

What about you? What stuff do you watch?

[It certainly does. And it really wouldn't be such a bad idea to maybe put up a video of their own. Although it might be a little difficult to do in a trailer, so ...]

Lots of stuff. [Real descriptive.] I mean, there's hardcore stuff, public videos, pegging, gangbangs, multiple penetration, chicks wrestling and fucking the loser with a strap-on, and yoga ones, too.

[That's just off the top of her head, there's a few here and there that she's forgetting, but.]

It's not really it's own category but I have a thing about women in wedding dresses being fucked really hard.

[Don't ask, man.]

[Difficult.

Not impossible.]

Pegging, huh...

[Man. Getting fucked while being tied up sounds like a pretty swell idea that he hasn't thought of before..]

Everyone has their own caveat. [One wonders if that's less a fetish and more self-insertion wish fulfillment but he'll keep that thought to himself.] Wait--"yoga?"

[Goodness, Krieg, don't mistake her for the kind of girl that actually believes she's worth anything that positive! Considering the forcefulness of some of those videos it might a quiet reinforcement that marriage is bullshit, no one is pure - least of all Nariko.]

Yeah, like, messing around in tight yoga clothes, ripping them open to fuck. And then there's other really complicated yoga sex positions!

[That look really great for tightening your core. Just saying.]

[He just thinks she'd look good in a wedding dress. No subconscious implications here, just dark skin dressed in white lace.]

I thought that was called kama sutra?

[Krieg is all about core exercises. You have his attention.]

[What a sweetheart. If he ever wants to embarrass the shit out of her all Krieg's got to do is say all of that.]

The Kama Sutra isn't completely dedicated to sex so much as marrying emotional and physical intimacy through actions, some of those being certain position. They're not particularly strenuous, though.

[Then again Nariko can put her ankles behind her ears so maybe don't trust her understand of flexibility.]

Honestly, have you seen some of the normal poses? It's hard not to think about sex with your ass up in the air. Especially when it's mine.

[Yeah, Krieg is not at all flexible...for virtue of his bulk. Maybe that'll change if a certain someone challenges him in the bedroom.

"Bedroom".]

I--

[Is--is that line of dialogue supposed to make him think about her ass in the air? Because it did. Not that it's improving his situation at all...but you very well could combine yoga with bondage.]

What? I'm short enough that I can pull it off in the trailer!

[She's completely misunderstanding his response.] You should try it with me! I'd say tomorrow but I plan to drive all night.

[For the record, if he's really still got a problem going on down there she hasn't noticed it because she refuses to look below his neck.]

[Woah woah woah okay, let's pull the mental handbreak before we formulate a response.]

Wait--try yoga with you with sex or without sex?

[He thinks that this is what he has to pay forward for tying him up and fucking him, because he thinks that's how it works.

And no, he hasn't looked below his neck either. He doesn't want to bring any more attention to it.]

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