doku | VISIONS I HAD BURIED UNDERGROUND / RETURNING TO ABUSE US

[She grins and seems happy to leave it at that until he asks that question. Somehow it's surprising that he's the first person in her life to ask the question - although now that she thinks about it there were probably quite a few who wanted to ask.]

No, I mean, there's other stuff I've considered that's along those lines, and it's not like I haven't had sex in public or in front of specific people ...

[This isn't explaining her lack of porn oriented decisions at all, is it?] I don't think I'd like never being known for anything else. And it's not very personal. There are other sex oriented things that are much easier, so I'd sooner go with those options.

Huh.

[Never thought of it that way.]

I guess it'd be hard to get employed by anyone who got off on watching you get it.

Well, it might not be 'hard'. [It'd probably be difficult to work for someone who knew what she'd done.]

But, I mean, I'd rather bang Roman and call him 'Daddy' for a summer and have enough money for two years than know that some video I make could be bought by virtually any company that throws out enough money. [The fact that Krieg seems so earnestly curious above all else makes it far too easy to talk about this stuff. She'd pretty much never bring up that man unless she was positive that her life depended on it.]

One thing that's concerning about industrial porn is that you probably don't have a lot of control over your work. It can go anywhere, your bound by a contract. If you're an escort or a sugar baby then the people you're stuck with are more capricious and demanding, but they're generally very rule-abiding.

Huh. I had no idea it was that...complicated.

[It's not really the right word, but it's the first one that comes to mind to describe such a situation where something so personal is so...publicly used.]

I liked just going through user submitted stuff. 'Cause--depending on the website--they still own it, and they can take it down when they want. And they get creative, too, like wearing masks or using camera angles to hide their face...

[Krieg just likes artists who make their own stuff, you know? Smut...artists.

...which gives him an idea.]

You, uh...wanna watch some together? [Her faves and/or his.]

[Life is complicated, Krieg, and so is this entire conversation. They've gone from awkwardly slipping into talking about sex to possibly watching porn together. So much for trying to keep her relationship with him uncomplicated and professional.]

Sure.

[She does a good job of sounding nonplussed! But her insides have the squirmy quality that tends to come with genuine excitement for the unknown.]

To think there are dedicated voyeurs, though! It's pretty cool.

[Man, why isn't she a smut artist?!]

[It...kind of feels natural to him. Nariko is the first woman he's liked in a way that wasn't just protective or familial. Now that he's gotten over the awkwardness that is admitting that he has yet to punch his v-card, the rest is coming pretty easily.]

Yeah, they're awesome. Some of them are even--you know, dedicated partners, recording real moments. Not trying to play the camera or anything. Just doing what they do.

[Maybe it's another venture Keigo can get into...]

Really? [There's a little sense of wonder in her voice as she says that, and for all that's going on in the back of her head that's such an incredibly sweet thought. Actual couples who just love each other a lot, and are incredibly kinky and confident enough to pretty much express that to anyone who goes looking.]

... Must be nice.

[To be that close to someone, to trust them like that ... She swallows an aching sort of bitterness and just smiles.]

There's a reason why I prefer it.

[Sounds like there's something in it for the both of them, then.]

What about you? What stuff do you watch?

[It certainly does. And it really wouldn't be such a bad idea to maybe put up a video of their own. Although it might be a little difficult to do in a trailer, so ...]

Lots of stuff. [Real descriptive.] I mean, there's hardcore stuff, public videos, pegging, gangbangs, multiple penetration, chicks wrestling and fucking the loser with a strap-on, and yoga ones, too.

[That's just off the top of her head, there's a few here and there that she's forgetting, but.]

It's not really it's own category but I have a thing about women in wedding dresses being fucked really hard.

[Don't ask, man.]

[Difficult.

Not impossible.]

Pegging, huh...

[Man. Getting fucked while being tied up sounds like a pretty swell idea that he hasn't thought of before..]

Everyone has their own caveat. [One wonders if that's less a fetish and more self-insertion wish fulfillment but he'll keep that thought to himself.] Wait--"yoga?"

[Goodness, Krieg, don't mistake her for the kind of girl that actually believes she's worth anything that positive! Considering the forcefulness of some of those videos it might a quiet reinforcement that marriage is bullshit, no one is pure - least of all Nariko.]

Yeah, like, messing around in tight yoga clothes, ripping them open to fuck. And then there's other really complicated yoga sex positions!

[That look really great for tightening your core. Just saying.]

[He just thinks she'd look good in a wedding dress. No subconscious implications here, just dark skin dressed in white lace.]

I thought that was called kama sutra?

[Krieg is all about core exercises. You have his attention.]

[What a sweetheart. If he ever wants to embarrass the shit out of her all Krieg's got to do is say all of that.]

The Kama Sutra isn't completely dedicated to sex so much as marrying emotional and physical intimacy through actions, some of those being certain position. They're not particularly strenuous, though.

[Then again Nariko can put her ankles behind her ears so maybe don't trust her understand of flexibility.]

Honestly, have you seen some of the normal poses? It's hard not to think about sex with your ass up in the air. Especially when it's mine.

[Yeah, Krieg is not at all flexible...for virtue of his bulk. Maybe that'll change if a certain someone challenges him in the bedroom.

"Bedroom".]

I--

[Is--is that line of dialogue supposed to make him think about her ass in the air? Because it did. Not that it's improving his situation at all...but you very well could combine yoga with bondage.]

What? I'm short enough that I can pull it off in the trailer!

[She's completely misunderstanding his response.] You should try it with me! I'd say tomorrow but I plan to drive all night.

[For the record, if he's really still got a problem going on down there she hasn't noticed it because she refuses to look below his neck.]

[Woah woah woah okay, let's pull the mental handbreak before we formulate a response.]

Wait--try yoga with you with sex or without sex?

[He thinks that this is what he has to pay forward for tying him up and fucking him, because he thinks that's how it works.

And no, he hasn't looked below his neck either. He doesn't want to bring any more attention to it.]

Without.

[Dude, you're not going to want to bang her all the time!]

I mean, it's just something to do together! I know enough to be a good teacher. [There does not need to be any paying forward in any respect, she's doing it because she wants to, after all. But ...]

You don't have to, of course.

[Now she can't help worrying that he's just humoring her likes because they've apparently decided to screw.]

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[No, he's too asexual-leaning to want to do it that frequently.]

No, no, it's a good idea, I just--just wanted to make sure what we were talking about. [He clears his throat.] Actually, I was thinking earlier...I'm gonna go crazy without a gym. I was thinking about getting a set of nesting weights. Yoga would be easy on the road, too.

[He's not humoring her. At least, not intentionally. He's just a clueless virgin.]

That'd be good, and there are bars to hang off of stuff for pull ups and such. [Which wouldn't do well for the trailer itself but there are parks and stuff, and you can take it everywhere!]

I could sit on your feet, too!

[She's not exactly petite but she might not weigh enough to actually hold any part of this man down without a good amount of help.]

Oh, that's a good idea.

[Since he can't put his feet under the couch (storage space) or the bed (more storage space). She doesn't need to hold him down, just be a counter-weight!]

...Thanks, Nariko.

[He breathes out softly.]

It feels nice to spend time with you.

[Here they are some hours into this drive and they don't want to kill each other! On the contrary!]

[She finally looks over at him properly and ... Ends up smiling, too.]

There's nothing to thank me for. [Incredibly on the contrary.]

It's nice to spend time with you, too.

[That's a little bit of the problem but once they get to Vegas everything will sort itself out. She has to believe in that.]

Oh, it's... [He waves it off.] Just a rehab thing. I thought you should know that I'm thankful for having you around.

[People just don't communicate that enough sometimes.]

Mm, considering that I tend to cause trouble nearly as much as I occasionally help ...

[Her response stands! There's nothing to thank her for, especially since they'll probably end up involved in some level of bullshit. The hazards of being a duo!]

[Lowly:] Stop it.

[He'd look her in the eyes if he could, but he's kind of...driving.]

We've both made our mistakes in our lives. We'll probably make a lot more. But that doesn't mean any less that you're one of the best things that has happened to me.

[She was kidding!!! ... No, she wasn't, and he clearly knew it, and that's what unnerves her, right along with his Super Serious Adult Voice. For a long moment Nariko remains as she is, staring ahead as if the road could tell her how to sort out her own dumb feelings. There's a part of her that wants to snap back, but it's actively - very obviously repressed.]

Fine.

[Yes, she's pouting a little bit, though it's a bit difficult to place why. Maybe because he shouldn't get under her skin so goddamn much and yet here they are.]

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