[She considers that a positive reaction, if nothing else, so she squeezes gently, but then moves up to go back to sort of petting his hair, just because it's the easiest thing to do that won't involve pulling him onto her lap. And she really, really wants to do just that, and probably will in due time.]

I want you. I don't care about anything else. [Her voice cracks a little as she says it, it's the verbalization of an incredibly raw feeling, after all.]

The vacation can't exactly count, but why don't we give it a try? If it's something I can't handle then I'll tell you, and we'll [She shrugs, toys with his bangs a little bit.] discuss it from there. You need to be happy with yourself and feel safe, if that means I'm not the only one you have sex with then we'll figure it out. I'll make it work in my head.

[Because he's ... The man's just perfect, okay? And to lose him because of something he ultimately can't even help would be horrible, it might break everything he's helped her repair.]

Either way, it's upward movement, nothing bad is going to happen.

[So deep breathes, Boxer, she's not going anywhere. And you probably aren't either since she's likely to bolt the windows or something.]