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[That he gets up to leave is interesting because she hasn't left his lap!! So at once she's on the floor and then he's ... Apparently trying to go out the window. Which would be incredibly alarming if it were anyone else ... Actually it's still pretty alarming even now.]
Boxer.
[It's going to be difficult but she gets a hold of him somehow whether it's his arm or his torso or his hip-ish area, and doesn't let go. Nariko is short but she's also a little stronger than one might think and he's at least got to feel her pulling at him.]
You're really going to leave me alone here?
Boxer.
[It's going to be difficult but she gets a hold of him somehow whether it's his arm or his torso or his hip-ish area, and doesn't let go. Nariko is short but she's also a little stronger than one might think and he's at least got to feel her pulling at him.]
You're really going to leave me alone here?
[She smirks a bit.]
Apex predator, right?
[He's incredibly biased and she's got a soft spot for people who go after what they want.]
I'm actually surprised that you haven't asked about it. [Not when they met that day and not now, as they make more room for conversation.] Or maybe it isn't the most normal thing to talk about?
[She hasn't dated since she was twenty so! It's a fair concern.]
Apex predator, right?
[He's incredibly biased and she's got a soft spot for people who go after what they want.]
I'm actually surprised that you haven't asked about it. [Not when they met that day and not now, as they make more room for conversation.] Or maybe it isn't the most normal thing to talk about?
[She hasn't dated since she was twenty so! It's a fair concern.]
["Try" should have been the operational word.
He really can't squirm out of her grasp--he's too dry and she's too strong, so he stops trying before instinct kicks in. His forearms rest on the floor, and he hides his face between them and his hands. To her question, he shakes his head 'no', unable to vocalize it because he's currently preoccupied by chanting DON'T INK DON'T INK DON'T INK in his head.]
He really can't squirm out of her grasp--he's too dry and she's too strong, so he stops trying before instinct kicks in. His forearms rest on the floor, and he hides his face between them and his hands. To her question, he shakes his head 'no', unable to vocalize it because he's currently preoccupied by chanting DON'T INK DON'T INK DON'T INK in his head.]
[He briefly meets her smirk before returning to his food.]
I think it's a social faux pas to talk about exes to people you're currently dating, right?
[Not that either of them particularly care for the conventions, but still.]
Look, all I really need to know is that he missed out on the best thing that ever happened to him. That said--if you want to vent about it, I'm all ears; but otherwise, I'm not going to ask questions.
I think it's a social faux pas to talk about exes to people you're currently dating, right?
[Not that either of them particularly care for the conventions, but still.]
Look, all I really need to know is that he missed out on the best thing that ever happened to him. That said--if you want to vent about it, I'm all ears; but otherwise, I'm not going to ask questions.
Hmmm! Is it really?
[... She's always ended up hearing about exes with her boyfriends, huh! But, hey, this means she gets to be mysterious, too, so it's okay.]
You don't know that yet, though! I could still be a horrible example of a person! You'll have to keep dating me to really figure it out!
[See what she did there Boxer.]
[... She's always ended up hearing about exes with her boyfriends, huh! But, hey, this means she gets to be mysterious, too, so it's okay.]
You don't know that yet, though! I could still be a horrible example of a person! You'll have to keep dating me to really figure it out!
[See what she did there Boxer.]
[When he goes still she lets go almost immediately and moves up to sort of face him properly.]
If you're not, then why are you trying to throw yourself out the window?
[Let's start simple and work up, it might be the way to go.]
If you're not, then why are you trying to throw yourself out the window?
[Let's start simple and work up, it might be the way to go.]
[For once she isn't particularly hungry, but she also can't remember the last time she ingested something that wasn't nicotine based or coffee, so even though looking at food gives her that weird nauseous feeling she gets a piece anyway. It's an incredible shame that she can't appreciate Jan's right now because it really is great.]
Can I stay here for a little while?
[It might be strange that she's asking at all, she's not above staying for a weekend or a night or two during the week, but there's something a little more resolute, definitive to the question.]
Can I stay here for a little while?
[It might be strange that she's asking at all, she's not above staying for a weekend or a night or two during the week, but there's something a little more resolute, definitive to the question.]
It's what I've been told.
[Said in a tone that reads: "It could be total bullshit."]
Well... [he gives her a lazy shrug, head canted to the side.] I guess that's an obligation I'm willing to take on. I'll have to make up some sort of rubric to make an assessment with, too...
[So srs!]
[Said in a tone that reads: "It could be total bullshit."]
Well... [he gives her a lazy shrug, head canted to the side.] I guess that's an obligation I'm willing to take on. I'll have to make up some sort of rubric to make an assessment with, too...
[So srs!]
Oh, I'm good at those! [Assessments, that is.]
But in exchange I should ask you a series of benign, but very important questions about life.
[She's only being half serious, but:] Like: Have you ever been in love?
[Not entirely not-serious, she's too curious.]
But in exchange I should ask you a series of benign, but very important questions about life.
[She's only being half serious, but:] Like: Have you ever been in love?
[Not entirely not-serious, she's too curious.]
[He's still got his face hidden, and it takes him a second to get his voice back. When he does, it's cracking and warbling--words on the verge of tears.]
I didn't--I didn't want to hurt you. I thought you knew, I thought--I don't want this to be another failed one; you're too important to me...
I didn't--I didn't want to hurt you. I thought you knew, I thought--I don't want this to be another failed one; you're too important to me...
Nothing has 'failed'.
[She reaches out to card her fingers through his hair very gently, and while her tone itself is also gentle there's a firmness there that can't be argued with. Nariko can't really help it, for as wildly as it contrasts her own feelings. When someone she loves is clearly hurt she can't do anything but try to be the strong one.] I am hurt, but that's my fault. I thought what we did was enough.
[But that was an assumption she made, wasn't it? An explanation she came up with that helped to keep her from lingering on the topic.]
Besides, neither one of us said it was exclusive, you haven't done anything wrong.
[They've spent a lot of time together, they're obviously on a trip together but ... Nothing is locked down until it is, right?]
[She reaches out to card her fingers through his hair very gently, and while her tone itself is also gentle there's a firmness there that can't be argued with. Nariko can't really help it, for as wildly as it contrasts her own feelings. When someone she loves is clearly hurt she can't do anything but try to be the strong one.] I am hurt, but that's my fault. I thought what we did was enough.
[But that was an assumption she made, wasn't it? An explanation she came up with that helped to keep her from lingering on the topic.]
Besides, neither one of us said it was exclusive, you haven't done anything wrong.
[They've spent a lot of time together, they're obviously on a trip together but ... Nothing is locked down until it is, right?]
[Yeah, you should probably eat, Nariko. Just take it slowly, and don't touch your drink yet.]
As long as you don't mind me getting flatbread crumbs on your boobs.
[He, uh, missed the intent of her question, but it's hard to argue when he gives her a teasing little nudge in the temple with his nose.]
As long as you don't mind me getting flatbread crumbs on your boobs.
[He, uh, missed the intent of her question, but it's hard to argue when he gives her a teasing little nudge in the temple with his nose.]
[That gets a snort out of her - and it quickly becomes a full blown laugh. It's not even that funny but she just needed to laugh, positivity is addicting when you haven't felt it in a little while.]
When have I ever minded that? [As long as she isn't in her work clothes or something fancy it's not really a problem! But he obviously didn't get her meaning, so she tries again, this time being a little more careful with her wording.]
I mean, for a while. Like. A week. [And then a little quieter, and also around her food:] Or two.
When have I ever minded that? [As long as she isn't in her work clothes or something fancy it's not really a problem! But he obviously didn't get her meaning, so she tries again, this time being a little more careful with her wording.]
I mean, for a while. Like. A week. [And then a little quieter, and also around her food:] Or two.
Love?
[Huh. He has to think about that one.]
I'm in love with the city...with the ocean and everything that lives with it. My job. Watching cloudy sunsets over the water.
But that's not the kind of love you're talking about, is it?
[There's a pregnant pause. His vision casts downward, and he pauses from his eating.]
...Lots of times.
[Huh. He has to think about that one.]
I'm in love with the city...with the ocean and everything that lives with it. My job. Watching cloudy sunsets over the water.
But that's not the kind of love you're talking about, is it?
[There's a pregnant pause. His vision casts downward, and he pauses from his eating.]
...Lots of times.
[Well, so much for 'benign'.]
Well, that must have been incredibly torturous.
[Romantic love is ... Not the easiest thing in the world, despite what tv shows and movies and most books communicate.]
Well, that must have been incredibly torturous.
[Romantic love is ... Not the easiest thing in the world, despite what tv shows and movies and most books communicate.]
[At the affectionate gesture, he tilts his head to the side just enough to look at her with a single eye. There's a slow blink, one that shows off both his eyelid sets.]
Almost daily...during the summer...
[He might as well be explicit now, right? If exclusive is what she wants.]
Every three days otherwise.
[Boxer sits up, but he slouches forward, his head hung low.]
We're going on a month-long vacation, Nariko...you've been my dedication for a while now. But if you want to sexually exclusive too...it's going to be demanding.
[Which means that he's going to initiate a lot, and there's not a whole lot of wiggle room to say no.]
The way we've been doing it, it's just...I always knew that you'd want it. With exclusivity, you won't always...
[Ugh, this sounds horrible, and he knows it.]
...have a say in the matter, one way or another...
Almost daily...during the summer...
[He might as well be explicit now, right? If exclusive is what she wants.]
Every three days otherwise.
[Boxer sits up, but he slouches forward, his head hung low.]
We're going on a month-long vacation, Nariko...you've been my dedication for a while now. But if you want to sexually exclusive too...it's going to be demanding.
[Which means that he's going to initiate a lot, and there's not a whole lot of wiggle room to say no.]
The way we've been doing it, it's just...I always knew that you'd want it. With exclusivity, you won't always...
[Ugh, this sounds horrible, and he knows it.]
...have a say in the matter, one way or another...
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[Her laugh gets a big smile on his face at least!]
Oh! Sure, sure. The boob crumb clause is still in effect, though. Everything okay over at your place, or do you just feel like spending more time with li'l old me?
[Oh yeah. He feels a lot better now that she's around.]
Oh! Sure, sure. The boob crumb clause is still in effect, though. Everything okay over at your place, or do you just feel like spending more time with li'l old me?
[Oh yeah. He feels a lot better now that she's around.]
[It's a weird moment to want to tell him everything from beginning to end, but she does. The words crawl up in her throat like a physical thing but this isn't the right moment. She can tell him later. ... Never mind that she's been telling herself that for months now.]
I think I'd just feel better if I was with you for now.
[And that's not a weird or off kilter response at all.] Not that I don't always want to spend more time with you, but still!
[She leans back to kiss him somewhere or another, it's a very wayward sort of kiss that is full of love.]
I think I'd just feel better if I was with you for now.
[And that's not a weird or off kilter response at all.] Not that I don't always want to spend more time with you, but still!
[She leans back to kiss him somewhere or another, it's a very wayward sort of kiss that is full of love.]
[Aw, and she thought she was special! Well, she probably still is, somehow!]
Big guy, big heart. [But it doesn't seem like something he wants to really delve into so she isn't going to push it.
She is going to finish off her sub, though.]
Big guy, big heart. [But it doesn't seem like something he wants to really delve into so she isn't going to push it.
She is going to finish off her sub, though.]
More than fine by me.
[It'll do them both good.]
You've got all your daily stuff set up, right?
[He means things like toothbrush, toothpaste, whatever products she wants, etc. He can't really kiss her back from this angle without choking on his food, but he gives her a gentle all-around squeeze with his tentacles. Tentahug!]
[It'll do them both good.]
You've got all your daily stuff set up, right?
[He means things like toothbrush, toothpaste, whatever products she wants, etc. He can't really kiss her back from this angle without choking on his food, but he gives her a gentle all-around squeeze with his tentacles. Tentahug!]
[Her comment makes him laugh, but he can't exactly follow through with that and still eat his food. He covers his mouth to finish his bite, then holds up three fingers with it.]
Three. Three hearts.
[If she wants more details, she's going to ask a more specific question; there's too much there to just start talking.]
Three. Three hearts.
[If she wants more details, she's going to ask a more specific question; there's too much there to just start talking.]
[She almost spits tomato on him and his neat suit, but thankfully it's ultimately downgraded to an embarrassing sputter, and the napkin saves the day!]
Okay, [Said when they're all clear.] big guy, and multiple hearts in order to adequately support an equally big and gorgeous body, then!
[That's a far more complicated response but it's incredibly accurate and genuine, so there you go.]
Okay, [Said when they're all clear.] big guy, and multiple hearts in order to adequately support an equally big and gorgeous body, then!
[That's a far more complicated response but it's incredibly accurate and genuine, so there you go.]
[Tentahugs are second best hugs, and also incredibly perfect and appropriately comforting for the moment. She rubs a tentacle or two, just because she's never gotten tired of occasionally showing that whole part of him affection.]
There's some stuff I'd have to grab, but I can do that tomorrow on my way back.
[She still has to go to work, but at the rate she's going Nariko might call in for the first time in years. At least her appetite seems to be returning, that's always a good sign.]
There's some stuff I'd have to grab, but I can do that tomorrow on my way back.
[She still has to go to work, but at the rate she's going Nariko might call in for the first time in years. At least her appetite seems to be returning, that's always a good sign.]
[It's awful that her first, natural response might be incredulity, because frankly the idea of that aggression, the lack of choice or at least the situation in which it would be difficult to object for a variety of reasons creates about the same reaction it has for years now - straight shot arousal that, if not for the far more important situation, would probably be dizzying for her. Who knew she'd actually be grateful for this heavy mood, because that's not a part of herself to be let out at all, basically.]
Mm. [That slouching, the lack of eye contact, it all worries her, but she has to give him room to go about it the way he needs to, even if it tears at her a little to see him devoid of his usual warmth.]
Is that to say you won't have a choice in how it starts, sometimes?
[Because she can't imagine the guy forcing a chicken to cross the road to save it's own life. So while she can certainly generate the fantasy it doesn't fit with Boxer as she knows him currently - which means there's something else, biological instincts or something, that she's not entirely aware of.]
Mm. [That slouching, the lack of eye contact, it all worries her, but she has to give him room to go about it the way he needs to, even if it tears at her a little to see him devoid of his usual warmth.]
Is that to say you won't have a choice in how it starts, sometimes?
[Because she can't imagine the guy forcing a chicken to cross the road to save it's own life. So while she can certainly generate the fantasy it doesn't fit with Boxer as she knows him currently - which means there's something else, biological instincts or something, that she's not entirely aware of.]
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